The Wall

The wall

The wall is up

It will never come down.

For once it did,and all came down.

Is for that wall is so hard to let down

to open, and just trust one more time

Its guarded so much more this time.

I know its going to take a lot more trust this time around.

so just be prepared to just get hurt this time around.

INNOCENTS

This child of innocents

He had no choice

You yelled you screamed you hit,

You put him down just as someone did to you,

You never had patience as they never did with you.

This was the only way you knew love.

We tried teaching you love,

You just never held on to it,

To learn a simple way from a child,

A tender way of just how lucky you were.

To have a chance to have us as a family.

But your rage and anger that you made .

You will never get that chance.

I am so glad I step up and said enough is enough.

Who will it be tonight?

Who will it be tonight?

Every night sleepiness nights not knowing if a gun will be to my head.

Will this be the night, that I might hear the gun go off.

Will it be me or will it be my son....

Hearing the foot steps by my bed side

Hearing the foot steps inside ,

I have to get up to protect my child,

Frighten that he is walking and pacing with the gun in the night.

Who will it be tonight?

Sharping and Shinning

Sharping and shinning his blades every night

Making sure they are just right

for what I just don't know.

Looking at me with rage of hate,

While sharping his blades every night

blaming me for his life.

You never know how brave you are,
how much courage you can have,
or how many Everests you can climb,
Until you are faced with
a fire-breathing dragon. . .
or a child you love with all
your heart, who needs
you to be their hero.

found this, and kept this close to me!

Taken Away

Taken away!
This house ,beautiful ,all I ever wanted.
Had to pinch my arm to see if it was a dream.
No it wasn't a dream, I did this on my own.
I was once told I couldn't do it.
I was careful, but one day I let my guard down.
He told me I didn't love him because I had my wall up.
Now I know that's not what love is about anymore!
He took all that I love from me.like a animal in a cage.
Only let me out when he wanted too! and enjoy the things when it was OK by him like a animal in a cage.
One by one ,my things started slipping away..
Even my self was slipping away.
Not just the things I cherish most. one by one going away...
But Trusted friends in my life dissolving away !